As children, we enter the world completely unaware of the dynamics that will shape and mold us into who we will become. In our early years, we are pure and full of ourselves, unapologetically occupying the space we are given. We don’t consider how our presence affects others; we simply exist boldly as we are.

However, as we grow, we begin to be influenced by those who came before us. Their issues and burdens are unknowingly placed onto us, altering how we feel, live, and present ourselves to the world. We shift from being pure in our ways to coping, complying, and covering up, all for the sake of survival.

We unconsciously search the world for things and people to heal our broken parts instead of searching for ourselves. Guided by our feelings, we are tossed this way and that with no direction, unaware of the things that pour out of us because we are not yet fully aware of all that lives inside us. Rather than taking the time to assess the damage and care for our wounds, we patch them with bandages and keep going. We fill our lives with things that seem like the answers to our broken places, only to realize later that we’ve gone about it all wrong.

Before we know it, we have built a life full of things and become slaves to bills and desires, allowing our jobs to consume our time and dreams, merely to make ends meet. We never truly find joy or peace in our lives. Our lives become focused on daily responsibilities, neglecting who we truly are and what we value. Our aspirations fall by the wayside, and our spirits are broken.

It isn’t until we make up our minds to trust that we begin to truly live and feel relief. I struggled with trusting myself and my feelings until I realized that sometimes what feels like trusting myself and leaning into my own understanding may actually be me allowing God to move me as He sees fit and use me. In this case, trusting myself is akin to trusting in God, for He is within me.

Fill your heart with the word of god and let him work in you to create the life he has for you 

Proverbs 3:1-8

Luke 6:45 (NIV)

A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.